haiz....
getting tired~~
i cant differentiate those ppl nowaday..
they act differently everyday...
should i believe them?
jz knew for few months...
sometimes treat me so good...sometime sucks...
worst den stranger sometimes...
i only can believe few of them at here...
for sure include my best fren ----GG
hehe....she damn funny wan lar...
feel happy when campur wit her...
i miss them...
i watch de VCD las weekend....
suddenly miss high school..
haha....
de time we boom, hav fun, play, shopping.....
ohoho..n also our 'pina' form..[dunno spell]
dunno they stil rmb wat we had plan?
WEAR 'PINA' TO SHOPPING MALL...
haha....anyway~
i will be busy n stress after this Thursday..
=>test
=>presentation
=>assignment
=>exam
=>student council
oh ya~
dunno jane got mad at me o not?
because of wat i posted in fb...
de 1st time she comment on my status...
it is a good news for me?
NO!!
it is not a wishing or normal comment though....
haiz..anyway~
im din take it serious for anything i wrote in fb..
unless it is sth about my hostel...
for piggys...
if got anything..
i will write in my blog instead of fb...
fb worldwide wan ehh...
summo my relatives r in my frenlist...
how can i luan luan lai....
haha...
anyway~sorry jane!!!
To: Jane Tan Sze Yiin
pls msg me or reply me after u saw dis...whether u got mad at me o not?
[dunno u got read my blog o not?haha..i admited my blog kinda messy n not interesting..haha everyone knew that^_^"]
i think u wont de la hor??
but do me a reply ....ok??
or not i wil guo yi bu qu~~
n one thing...
I HATE HER...
of course not piggys member, dun misund.........
love my true fren 4eva~
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Saturday, November 7, 2009
now i realize that...
badminton string need to retie every 3 months....
because...
de string will lose tension when:
u play especially to those who keep smashing
u put aside or hang it...didn't use it....
or in da hot place e.g:car..
this all will make ur string lose n lost de exact tension that u had...
in order to improve ur self~~change it to de suitable tension..
for retie:
no money added...u jz have to buy de string...pay de string $$ can d...^^
about 20++...
for me,
tension=24
price=RM23
so like that laa~~
want to retie badminton string or change grip or buy racket...
find me ya!!!
haha.....
i can get a cheaper price for u...
badminton string need to retie every 3 months....
because...
de string will lose tension when:
u play especially to those who keep smashing
u put aside or hang it...didn't use it....
or in da hot place e.g:car..
this all will make ur string lose n lost de exact tension that u had...
in order to improve ur self~~change it to de suitable tension..
for retie:
no money added...u jz have to buy de string...pay de string $$ can d...^^
about 20++...
for me,
tension=24
price=RM23
so like that laa~~
want to retie badminton string or change grip or buy racket...
find me ya!!!
haha.....
i can get a cheaper price for u...
Being so hectic again….
Today morning purging again, feel sucks….
My “large snake” was cramp…..
N my tears flow out in succession…
In that moment, I decided something ME, JOSEPHINE ONGI LEE LING_NOT GOING ABDULLAH CHAN EAT AGAIN..
Urgh! Damn it!!
I went clinic again….
Waste $$...donate to clinic always….
T_T
After that went KX badminton Gallery…
I change my 2 rackets grip n 1 string….
Retie de string…
N I spend RM47 for it…
I’m really not willing to do that..
But what to do?
De rackets…
Im not de one to spoil it…
It’s other ppl spoil..
Should I ask them pay for me?
I’m definitely regretted lending my racket to her…
She terbuang my racket summon de grip damn suck when I hold on it…
De most weird thing is…
She never drops her own racket…
But mine, she always drop it….
Is it means, she’s a selfish person?
Definitely yes!!
She spoiled my 18 yo birthday present that given by my mum…
N this racket is my mum chooses herself….de string, de grip, de frame…
Do u noe how meaning ful is it?
I’m using another racket to train myself..
that racket is heavy
in order to train myself…
I must use heavy racket instead of using weightless racket..
This is de reason y I dun use my bday present..
Anyway, I did complain to my mum…
N she gives me advice….
So im not so mad now….just loves to blame...^_^
Just feel not worth…
One thing…
I WONT BORROW MY FAVOURITE RACKET TO ANYONE….
retie de string n grip..
receipts..
After KX…
Go back home eat medicine den slp…
Dam sleepy…
Oh ya..
Sorry for late reply Joanna n aris msg…
Coz de content seems urgent…
Sorry yah….
No electric now..damn hot …
N they’re going Thailand..
4a.m..
I got many presentation n assignment need to hand up next week…
So cannot go…
Haiz…
T_T
Okla..it’s time to end my post..
Today morning purging again, feel sucks….
My “large snake” was cramp…..
N my tears flow out in succession…
In that moment, I decided something ME, JOSEPHINE ONGI LEE LING_NOT GOING ABDULLAH CHAN EAT AGAIN..
Urgh! Damn it!!
I went clinic again….
Waste $$...donate to clinic always….
T_T
After that went KX badminton Gallery…
I change my 2 rackets grip n 1 string….
Retie de string…
N I spend RM47 for it…
I’m really not willing to do that..
But what to do?
De rackets…
Im not de one to spoil it…
It’s other ppl spoil..
Should I ask them pay for me?
I’m definitely regretted lending my racket to her…
She terbuang my racket summon de grip damn suck when I hold on it…
De most weird thing is…
She never drops her own racket…
But mine, she always drop it….
Is it means, she’s a selfish person?
Definitely yes!!
She spoiled my 18 yo birthday present that given by my mum…
N this racket is my mum chooses herself….de string, de grip, de frame…
Do u noe how meaning ful is it?
I’m using another racket to train myself..
that racket is heavy
in order to train myself…
I must use heavy racket instead of using weightless racket..
This is de reason y I dun use my bday present..
Anyway, I did complain to my mum…
N she gives me advice….
So im not so mad now….just loves to blame...^_^
Just feel not worth…
One thing…
I WONT BORROW MY FAVOURITE RACKET TO ANYONE….
retie de string n grip..
receipts..
After KX…
Go back home eat medicine den slp…
Dam sleepy…
Oh ya..
Sorry for late reply Joanna n aris msg…
Coz de content seems urgent…
Sorry yah….
No electric now..damn hot …
N they’re going Thailand..
4a.m..
I got many presentation n assignment need to hand up next week…
So cannot go…
Haiz…
T_T
Okla..it’s time to end my post..
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
this subject really killing me!
squeeze out all my brain juice....
kinda tear off all de notes n smash my lappy...
fxxk off! i will let 'u' dissolve in my brain soon....
good luck in my pathogenesis of disease test 2mr...
n did i mess up everything??
sorry abt thaT...kinda blurr n dunno what i want actually!
n also meeting 2mr....argh...
is it possible for me to keep silent in de meeting?
squeeze out all my brain juice....
kinda tear off all de notes n smash my lappy...
fxxk off! i will let 'u' dissolve in my brain soon....
good luck in my pathogenesis of disease test 2mr...
n did i mess up everything??
sorry abt thaT...kinda blurr n dunno what i want actually!
n also meeting 2mr....argh...
is it possible for me to keep silent in de meeting?
Friday, October 30, 2009
just finish our student council election...
there's all not de same what i thought of...
at 1st....
i had figure out who will be de president-----Jas or Chris...
but............
my little Gwen became president...
haha..i'm really happy with it too...!!!
for sure i did vote her....
let's describe de pattern she shown us....
B4 she show us i alr imagine...
i knew that she 100% will screw up her forehead n ask what happen,surely will be showing her BLURR face too!!
haha^^
what i had imagine is really happen + she shout on de spot "but im stil young" haha..dis sentence hor, everybody laugh...n brandon answered "u tot dis is world president a?[sth like dat,i cannot rmb d]damn funny la her...
do u all know y i would know that,i mean my imagination?
answ: She took off her spect b4 de election starts^_^...
Gwen-->she damn cute lar....1st time saw her...........hmm..1st time saw her really got feel paiseh de pattern...haha
and....de scary thing started now...
tat time im nervous too..scare our Gwen will DONATE my name too-->Numonee...
at 1st... she mention my name for Treasurer ...
omg!!if i really got dis...i need to collect $$ from whole vision coll student..
ohnononono!!
i dwn...
luckily takda kena...kekekeke...
n de 2nd time...i sddly appeared in Event Coordinator position...
hmmph..honestly!i felt quite nervous n happy altho i dunno wat's dis position abt[ actualy i noe wan laa, but not sure XD can c from de word "event" mah,tat time i guess mayb it's abt create event de]
manatau...i got dis position n together v Sonia...
hmmph....few words to describe my feeling...
happy n nervous n shock....
as this time is de 1st time really got ppl support me... [ at least gt lil bit votes]
n in high sch..i used to be outsider..=.="
gwen wants me to hold a position..hehe...luckily she din forget what we had plan for...
i mean hor...is de type of nervous till forget de forget...
ok~ this is part 1 for de election...
PART 2 [after election]
i was thinking tat...
gwen wil b very bz...n she needs to face many prob....
really good luck to her...
n i wil giv her advise as wat i can do lo....
hope she wil b ok in de future time....
there surely many unsatisfaction n politician ....
haiz....i wil backup for her??i hope so...
n i dunno winnie is de type of really support sports or only donation type..haha...impo all event also abt donate dis n dat ba..
this is wat i thinked....makes sth fun...so that vision college will be vision college....
(((doop doop doop~~sddly so many ideas come out in my mind...)))
so like tat laa..i alry prepared....
dunno others prepared d???
i hope 09/10 student council wil be de most successful n peaceful n arrangeable......
GO FOR IT!!!
there's all not de same what i thought of...
at 1st....
i had figure out who will be de president-----Jas or Chris...
but............
my little Gwen became president...
haha..i'm really happy with it too...!!!
for sure i did vote her....
let's describe de pattern she shown us....
B4 she show us i alr imagine...
i knew that she 100% will screw up her forehead n ask what happen,surely will be showing her BLURR face too!!
haha^^
what i had imagine is really happen + she shout on de spot "but im stil young" haha..dis sentence hor, everybody laugh...n brandon answered "u tot dis is world president a?[sth like dat,i cannot rmb d]damn funny la her...
do u all know y i would know that,i mean my imagination?
answ: She took off her spect b4 de election starts^_^...
Gwen-->she damn cute lar....1st time saw her...........hmm..1st time saw her really got feel paiseh de pattern...haha
and....de scary thing started now...
tat time im nervous too..scare our Gwen will DONATE my name too-->Numonee...
at 1st... she mention my name for Treasurer ...
omg!!if i really got dis...i need to collect $$ from whole vision coll student..
ohnononono!!
i dwn...
luckily takda kena...kekekeke...
n de 2nd time...i sddly appeared in Event Coordinator position...
hmmph..honestly!i felt quite nervous n happy altho i dunno wat's dis position abt[ actualy i noe wan laa, but not sure XD can c from de word "event" mah,tat time i guess mayb it's abt create event de]
manatau...i got dis position n together v Sonia...
hmmph....few words to describe my feeling...
happy n nervous n shock....
as this time is de 1st time really got ppl support me... [ at least gt lil bit votes]
n in high sch..i used to be outsider..=.="
gwen wants me to hold a position..hehe...luckily she din forget what we had plan for...
i mean hor...is de type of nervous till forget de forget...
ok~ this is part 1 for de election...
PART 2 [after election]
i was thinking tat...
gwen wil b very bz...n she needs to face many prob....
really good luck to her...
n i wil giv her advise as wat i can do lo....
hope she wil b ok in de future time....
there surely many unsatisfaction n politician ....
haiz....i wil backup for her??i hope so...
n i dunno winnie is de type of really support sports or only donation type..haha...impo all event also abt donate dis n dat ba..
this is wat i thinked....makes sth fun...so that vision college will be vision college....
(((doop doop doop~~sddly so many ideas come out in my mind...)))
so like tat laa..i alry prepared....
dunno others prepared d???
i hope 09/10 student council wil be de most successful n peaceful n arrangeable......
GO FOR IT!!!
Friday, October 16, 2009
1991年6月26日 3.59pm 她出世了…
她可说是幸福的小孩,
黄家的长孙…
每个人都疼他..
理所当然的…
她是受宠的一个宝贝..
到了幼稚园, 因为她胆小….结果被欺负….
有一天,
她被欺负所留下的痕迹,被她爸爸看到了…
她爸爸立刻去算帐…
在那一刻,她真的感到非常幸福,被受保护的…..
爸爸就成了她心目中的英雄…
到了华小,
他非常艰苦, 因为他重小是英文教育…突然间来到了华小….
她听不懂身边的人所说的话,包括老师们…
她就每天静静的坐在角落,不接触任何人,孤孤独独的…
世界就像黑白似的..
没有朋友..
惟有让她觉得这世界还有色彩的是….
英文节…
因为这是她唯一能与他人沟通的一刻…
她持续这些生活大半年…
快要二年级时,
她妈妈终于找她一个补习老师..
那时,妈妈终于有休假..
才有时间关心她…
不过,妈妈每天会对她说她爸的好…
因为她爸没什么时间陪着她…
她妈的用意是要她长大后记得她爸…
而这时妈也开始让她做家务,帮忙做菜…
到了三年级,她由于华语进步了,就上了第一班…
这也是她恶梦的起步……………..
她的压力开始了,
同时家庭也开始慢慢裂开…
三年级的某一天…
他们吵架…
她隐隐约约看到了一点…
撞墙的,巴掌的,喊叫声….
不过,婆婆却把她带进了房间…
在学校呢,还是一样没朋友….
不被器用,只有她的英文老师是她的朋友..
同时,英文老师也让她当了英文学会主席..
她又紧张又开心的..
同时,也有人不服她而开始暗算她….
这是她还是一样胆小..
每天提心吊胆地到学校去…
有一天被ELYK冤枉,被处罚了…
不敢对她爸妈说,因为怕ELYK中骂(很笨吧?)…
就这样,四年级又退下第二班..
四年级开始…
她开始没那么孤僻了…
因为有球队,开始与他人接触…
有个男的THS对她实在好,每天会给她东西(可能她是唯一比较不会炸人的女生吧)
他送了她好多’心’的东西..
那时她旁边是LCC坐..与他每天炸来炸去..
五年级….
还是LCC坐她旁边,他会牵她的手…
上课时,下课时…
还真浪漫呢!^^
那时真开心…华语也变好了…
哈哈…
六年级,
遇见了他..
他,WSK….
坐她旁边,又与她外婆租房子..
她与他每天放学一起回家…
每天去他家,他也每次准时送她回家…
他的数学很好..
Weekend 就一起打篮球…
累了,就偷进班休息,躺着看天花板…
由于guard会来寻..他们有时会躲在厨里或角落..
我们就不小心成了学校的情侣..
又一次,她玩他,喷他水…
ELYK 去告发..结果,老师要处罚…
他却帮她顶下来了..说是他先要喷她,不过却弄倒在他自己的裤子..
结果挨了八鞭…
那时,她不懂为什么心会那么不舒服(酸)
说真的,她真的很慢熟..
Haiz..
他帮她…………………………………………….
---拿书…
---拿米(鸡吃的)..
---顶罪…
真是一个好人..
他真的很懂事,可能是他妈得了乳癌…
她也每天帮他煮给他弟妹吃…
有一天,她不小心被他吻到了..
而且,被三个人看到---TCP,FZH,NBL,CYN & YWY
这五个是名副其实的大嘴巴…
不到一下子,全校都知道..
她又在受保护的情况下成长了…
中学时期..
遇见了她的好姐妹了….TYJ…
不过,
F3 就有些变动…
F1—1st class
F2---2nd class (miserable season)
F4 全部不同班了…
友情??还好啦…
不过认识了,CCYX
他真是好笑…
他爱情真的是……糟糕!!!(when you saw this, don’t angry ya!)
Is complicated la~
哈哈!!
也和KLKW交往半年…
分手原因: 没时间陪对方,父母限制,过后,他也去JB 接手他爸的分店了.
[开始把’ ’她’’ 改成’’我’’ 因为一直打错字]
F5猪家族成立了…
哈哈..
Vivian Soh, Suet Ying, Yee Joe, Sarah Lee, Me, Ai Lene, Chai Lynn & Sze Yiin ;
湄，莹，茹，莹，玲，苓，铃，盈….
茹交了男友..恭喜她…
友情也减少一点了咯（我老实说）….
说真的,
如是我的第一个好朋友…
所以我很珍惜她…
我的朋友便多了….很开心…
朋友是我的一部分子吧!我只有朋友能说心事…
毕业了~
成绩好差…
14.12.08
小学聚会….
遇回他…
拍了好多照片,他也要求把照片洗出来….
哈哈哈!!开心的很….
拍照时,盈与铃经过…
2009年….
家庭碎裂的开始…
4月9日
得知我有弟弟和妹妹…
同父异母…
以泪洗脸的,
谢谢茹的安慰!
我真的很伤心~
爸爸一向都是好爸爸的膜样(除了他好凶)…
我接受不到…
我妈也一定很辛苦,守了8年….
妈也是后来才知道他有孩子在外….
妈把我教得很好…
不然,我现在一定不会认他…
5月..我也开始去COLLEGE,KELANA JAYA…
妈妈的忧郁症严重了…
她每天吃安眠药…
我呢,三艮半夜被吵醒…
他们就叫我传话…
我真的很讨厌,
你们这样,我真的很辛苦…
我一下子必须接受那么多东西….
而且每次吵架我就会得知你们的一些往事…
妈~
你每次要我说爸…
你以为我不会伤心吗??
每次吵架后,就要我把我刚知道的事情去讲爸…
难道你每次没发现我都哭得很伤的吗?
你们吵架时,可不可以直接坦白全部?
别事后才坦白一切…然后又要我传话。
你们把我搞得很不想回家….
我每次回去那边都要担心家….
尤其是妈…
你别每次离家出走可以吗?外面很危险！
别吃安眠药可以吗?
别每天把爸爸的气话当真好吗?
你们要离婚我无所谓…
不过,我很清楚确定…
你需要爸….
你别在折磨自己好吗?
我真的很心疼…
我不能专心读书…
还有爸,
你可不可以别每次嘶吼吗?
真的很恐怖…
你会偷偷跟我说,你的心脏会痛，你爱妈….
你就别那么坏脾气好吗?
你们每次吵还不是为了钱?
我不读书了,这样可以吗?
虽然妈不应许,不过我很确定爸想我停学…
PTPTN 得不到还不是我的错!!
都是我没用!!
你们懂吗?
你们吵架都是为了我…
有时,我真地落到极点时…
我真的想永远消失在这世界上…[这消极的方法让我真的很XXX..]
那~你们就不会那么辛苦了…
你们昨天吵到5点…
我也5点才睡…
我真的很累,
爸爸气爆上,说要离婚….
那时,我真的很伤心,
家庭真的碎了…
他也叫我别读了..
不过,我真的不想就这样放弃掉…
我以前可能会选折放弃…
不过现在不会了…
妈妈,你别把爸说的当真可以吗?
你也应该懂,他最爱说气话…
还有,
你们每次对我说的都不一样…
我不懂该相信谁..
连自己的父母,我都很难去相信…那我真的很………………
你们每次一气说的话,就不一样..
让我活得很厌倦..
我很少找人诉苦..
茹?我不懂她得空才是不得空,因为都没跟她联络…
文呢?就…….别去烦她了啦!!
这件事只是5个人知道..
JOE,LENE,CALEB,GWEN & KARYEN
很抱歉..
现在告诉你们咯…
以前我不想家丑外露..
不过想了又想…
因为你们都是我的真心朋友…
我不想你们对我一无所知咯…
有时可能会突然对你们脸臭臭的..
对不起啊~
因为真的很难控制…
就提醒你们…
别再说我没兄弟姐妹,然后在家里很宝之类的…
这会让我想起这些事…
OK?
有什么意见,
sms找我…
我真的很需要你们帮忙…
因为,我真的不懂该怎么解决他们的事..
彩铃不会看华语,对不起啊!
因为我必须打华语,我不想让我姑丈看到…
她可说是幸福的小孩,
黄家的长孙…
每个人都疼他..
理所当然的…
她是受宠的一个宝贝..
到了幼稚园, 因为她胆小….结果被欺负….
有一天,
她被欺负所留下的痕迹,被她爸爸看到了…
她爸爸立刻去算帐…
在那一刻,她真的感到非常幸福,被受保护的…..
爸爸就成了她心目中的英雄…
到了华小,
他非常艰苦, 因为他重小是英文教育…突然间来到了华小….
她听不懂身边的人所说的话,包括老师们…
她就每天静静的坐在角落,不接触任何人,孤孤独独的…
世界就像黑白似的..
没有朋友..
惟有让她觉得这世界还有色彩的是….
英文节…
因为这是她唯一能与他人沟通的一刻…
她持续这些生活大半年…
快要二年级时,
她妈妈终于找她一个补习老师..
那时,妈妈终于有休假..
才有时间关心她…
不过,妈妈每天会对她说她爸的好…
因为她爸没什么时间陪着她…
她妈的用意是要她长大后记得她爸…
而这时妈也开始让她做家务,帮忙做菜…
到了三年级,她由于华语进步了,就上了第一班…
这也是她恶梦的起步……………..
她的压力开始了,
同时家庭也开始慢慢裂开…
三年级的某一天…
他们吵架…
她隐隐约约看到了一点…
撞墙的,巴掌的,喊叫声….
不过,婆婆却把她带进了房间…
在学校呢,还是一样没朋友….
不被器用,只有她的英文老师是她的朋友..
同时,英文老师也让她当了英文学会主席..
她又紧张又开心的..
同时,也有人不服她而开始暗算她….
这是她还是一样胆小..
每天提心吊胆地到学校去…
有一天被ELYK冤枉,被处罚了…
不敢对她爸妈说,因为怕ELYK中骂(很笨吧?)…
就这样,四年级又退下第二班..
四年级开始…
她开始没那么孤僻了…
因为有球队,开始与他人接触…
有个男的THS对她实在好,每天会给她东西(可能她是唯一比较不会炸人的女生吧)
他送了她好多’心’的东西..
那时她旁边是LCC坐..与他每天炸来炸去..
五年级….
还是LCC坐她旁边,他会牵她的手…
上课时,下课时…
还真浪漫呢!^^
那时真开心…华语也变好了…
哈哈…
六年级,
遇见了他..
他,WSK….
坐她旁边,又与她外婆租房子..
她与他每天放学一起回家…
每天去他家,他也每次准时送她回家…
他的数学很好..
Weekend 就一起打篮球…
累了,就偷进班休息,躺着看天花板…
由于guard会来寻..他们有时会躲在厨里或角落..
我们就不小心成了学校的情侣..
又一次,她玩他,喷他水…
ELYK 去告发..结果,老师要处罚…
他却帮她顶下来了..说是他先要喷她,不过却弄倒在他自己的裤子..
结果挨了八鞭…
那时,她不懂为什么心会那么不舒服(酸)
说真的,她真的很慢熟..
Haiz..
他帮她…………………………………………….
---拿书…
---拿米(鸡吃的)..
---顶罪…
真是一个好人..
他真的很懂事,可能是他妈得了乳癌…
她也每天帮他煮给他弟妹吃…
有一天,她不小心被他吻到了..
而且,被三个人看到---TCP,FZH,NBL,CYN & YWY
这五个是名副其实的大嘴巴…
不到一下子,全校都知道..
她又在受保护的情况下成长了…
中学时期..
遇见了她的好姐妹了….TYJ…
不过,
F3 就有些变动…
F1—1st class
F2---2nd class (miserable season)
F4 全部不同班了…
友情??还好啦…
不过认识了,CCYX
他真是好笑…
他爱情真的是……糟糕!!!(when you saw this, don’t angry ya!)
Is complicated la~
哈哈!!
也和KLKW交往半年…
分手原因: 没时间陪对方,父母限制,过后,他也去JB 接手他爸的分店了.
[开始把’ ’她’’ 改成’’我’’ 因为一直打错字]
F5猪家族成立了…
哈哈..
Vivian Soh, Suet Ying, Yee Joe, Sarah Lee, Me, Ai Lene, Chai Lynn & Sze Yiin ;
湄，莹，茹，莹，玲，苓，铃，盈….
茹交了男友..恭喜她…
友情也减少一点了咯（我老实说）….
说真的,
如是我的第一个好朋友…
所以我很珍惜她…
我的朋友便多了….很开心…
朋友是我的一部分子吧!我只有朋友能说心事…
毕业了~
成绩好差…
14.12.08
小学聚会….
遇回他…
拍了好多照片,他也要求把照片洗出来….
哈哈哈!!开心的很….
拍照时,盈与铃经过…
2009年….
家庭碎裂的开始…
4月9日
得知我有弟弟和妹妹…
同父异母…
以泪洗脸的,
谢谢茹的安慰!
我真的很伤心~
爸爸一向都是好爸爸的膜样(除了他好凶)…
我接受不到…
我妈也一定很辛苦,守了8年….
妈也是后来才知道他有孩子在外….
妈把我教得很好…
不然,我现在一定不会认他…
5月..我也开始去COLLEGE,KELANA JAYA…
妈妈的忧郁症严重了…
她每天吃安眠药…
我呢,三艮半夜被吵醒…
他们就叫我传话…
我真的很讨厌,
你们这样,我真的很辛苦…
我一下子必须接受那么多东西….
而且每次吵架我就会得知你们的一些往事…
妈~
你每次要我说爸…
你以为我不会伤心吗??
每次吵架后,就要我把我刚知道的事情去讲爸…
难道你每次没发现我都哭得很伤的吗?
你们吵架时,可不可以直接坦白全部?
别事后才坦白一切…然后又要我传话。
你们把我搞得很不想回家….
我每次回去那边都要担心家….
尤其是妈…
你别每次离家出走可以吗?外面很危险！
别吃安眠药可以吗?
别每天把爸爸的气话当真好吗?
你们要离婚我无所谓…
不过,我很清楚确定…
你需要爸….
你别在折磨自己好吗?
我真的很心疼…
我不能专心读书…
还有爸,
你可不可以别每次嘶吼吗?
真的很恐怖…
你会偷偷跟我说,你的心脏会痛，你爱妈….
你就别那么坏脾气好吗?
你们每次吵还不是为了钱?
我不读书了,这样可以吗?
虽然妈不应许,不过我很确定爸想我停学…
PTPTN 得不到还不是我的错!!
都是我没用!!
你们懂吗?
你们吵架都是为了我…
有时,我真地落到极点时…
我真的想永远消失在这世界上…[这消极的方法让我真的很XXX..]
那~你们就不会那么辛苦了…
你们昨天吵到5点…
我也5点才睡…
我真的很累,
爸爸气爆上,说要离婚….
那时,我真的很伤心,
家庭真的碎了…
他也叫我别读了..
不过,我真的不想就这样放弃掉…
我以前可能会选折放弃…
不过现在不会了…
妈妈,你别把爸说的当真可以吗?
你也应该懂,他最爱说气话…
还有,
你们每次对我说的都不一样…
我不懂该相信谁..
连自己的父母,我都很难去相信…那我真的很………………
你们每次一气说的话,就不一样..
让我活得很厌倦..
我很少找人诉苦..
茹?我不懂她得空才是不得空,因为都没跟她联络…
文呢?就…….别去烦她了啦!!
这件事只是5个人知道..
JOE,LENE,CALEB,GWEN & KARYEN
很抱歉..
现在告诉你们咯…
以前我不想家丑外露..
不过想了又想…
因为你们都是我的真心朋友…
我不想你们对我一无所知咯…
有时可能会突然对你们脸臭臭的..
对不起啊~
因为真的很难控制…
就提醒你们…
别再说我没兄弟姐妹,然后在家里很宝之类的…
这会让我想起这些事…
OK?
有什么意见,
sms找我…
我真的很需要你们帮忙…
因为,我真的不懂该怎么解决他们的事..
彩铃不会看华语,对不起啊!
因为我必须打华语,我不想让我姑丈看到…
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